I’m going to try to discipline myself into only reading something only if I’m focused and questioning what I read. I’m like, such a nervous person with ADD tendencies so sometimes I feel rushed and pressured to read an article, book, whatever, fast so that I can go on to reading something else I want to read. It just kinda becomes a pointless cycle  because I’ve noticed that if I don’t really process or really think about something, and just go about it aimlessly, I feel frazzled and it’s like bits of open ended and nonsensical information and thoughts floating around in my head after. I’m weird and wonder if anyone else feels like this? Blah, this is dumb but, yeah. 

Ew, who am I becoming. 

Went running today on a different route because I needed a new scene, and omg I don’t know if it’s because it was a new scene that I made me think of weird, more random than normal things on my run. I like to think that running clears my mind, and it usually does, but most of the time while running my mind seriously really wanders and I think of the weirdest things. This is really bugging me because when my mind wanders that much and I think of people and situations I thought I’ve long forgotten and that don’t even matter, I start questioning my reality…and yeah.